A World Called Fear

Sometimes I hold myself still, and watch life go by,
As if I'm waiting on everything to be goodbye,
Eyes closed, as if I'm afraid to look high,
A fear of heights, do I dare fly?
But here I am and life's gone by,
Body closed out, a truth not a lie,
In this world of mine, mine as in my.

But if I were to be honest, with myself.
Like a woman should be, with herself,
I would reveal, my greatest fear,
No matter if, I shed a tear,
I could reveal I'm afraid, of fear itself,
For it is better than a person being afraid, of them-self,
To be afraid of one-self...
But in all clear honesty,
I'm just afraid to cry, what misery.

Remember Me

Although I am here no longer,
I will always be your loving Mother,
Through the good times and bad,
Of all the memories we have had,
Please my sweet do not be sad.

Rejoice in the life you have been given,
I have had a life well spent, it was worth livin'
Do not let my passing be such an unforgivable sin,
That you can not live your life happy, to it's end,
Just remember me and be happy my dear sweet Ben.

I am sure that you will miss me as I miss you,
But I need you to be strong so that the others may too.

I know that you will always remember that I am gone,
But remember also that your Mother has gone home.

Remember me but forget the Sorrow
And when the sun sets, remember this tomorrow...

What Is Just?

Born into a world of sin,
As children we don't understand,
We don't know what's right and what's wrong,
Just that we have to go along.

Everyone is doing different things around us,
How do we know what's really Just?
Is it what we're taught or what feels right?
Something easily bought or something we have to fight?

Some are taught to kill, some are taught to love,
For the same goal, to reach that place above!
Some are taught that very place doesn't exist,
And for that reason countries are telling their people to enlist!

We're told to work for our money,
But how can we in such a bad economy?
Forced to hustle, Forced to steal,
Then they look down on us, like something ill.

Society itself is nothing but a prison,
Locking us in, but what's the reason?
Threw into this mass of confusion,
Same thought, we need a resolution.

A Woman is Not a Girl

Ever mistook a woman for a girl?
If not then give it a whirl.
But I should warn you first.
That she will leave you oh so versed.
What's the difference you say?
Well let me put it this way.
All that dignity you thought you had.
Gone down the drain, now ain't that sad?
All that charm that made you feel bad,
Makes the girls laugh, now aren't you mad?
Little girls will throw a fit,
Grown women will correct you lickedy split.

Karma

Here is a world in which purpose was stolen,
In which people are only a vessel of themselves,
A world where dreams exist no longer,
Where Hope is drained and sorrow raised.
A place where I intend to take back, what is rightfully mine.
You can be the Knight fighting by my side,
Or you can be the rival, who shrivels to nothing, at my feet.
This is a fight that I plan to win.
You better get the best blacksmith and an even better priest,
Because only the strongest and purest,
Will be enough to pierce this skin and reach this heart.
Enemy of mine, who has done everything, in their power
To bring me down to this hellish pit,
Allow me to introduce, your maker,
The One.
The Only.
My Sword.
Karma.

Unnamed Emotion

Too strong for friendship,
Too pure for sexship,
All I know is,
I want a relationship.

A relationship with you,
A bonding so true.
A wish for you,
Is all that I desire.

Needing your presence,
Wanting your comfort,
Feeling your essence,
Day after Day.

It's more than flirtation,
Larger than infatuation,
Greater than fondness,
This unnamed emotion.

Body of Shame

Living with you, has been like living in Hell,
No matter what I do, you would always yell,
Not at them, but me, as if I was to blame,
For all the world's problems, a burden..a stray..a body of shame,

As if Hate was my first name, you gave me nothing but such,
How I begged for different, you'll never know how much.
As if Love was my last name, it never once came first,
And how like the travelers of the desert, I did thirst.

Day in, Day out, Ugh, how you would shout,
As usual, it seems, I'm what it's about,
Oh..this verbal..yet emotional childish abuse,
how I wish it to end, but no genie, so what is the use?

Word of Hate, from one that you love,
Can cause you to yearn, for that world above.
Two times you've pushed me, to that sinful limit,
A limit so dangerous, a few return from it.

But words are useless, where you are concerned,
you would rather have me staked, then watch me burn,
No, you would have me hung, for the world to see,
A body of Shame, I guess that is me.

Love You Eternal

Looking across the nameless faces, for just one face,
None of them resembles you, not even a trace.
But I pray still, for that small give away,
That lovely smile, that you always sent my way.
My mind knows you're gone, but my heart is yet to wake.
Yet to acknowledge that all these copies are fake.
None shines a light, bright as you my love.
So please send me that smile, from far above.
Come brighten my so dreary day.
Prove to me the words you can no longer say.
A family of Love that lasts Eternally.

Love Page

I find myself flipping through the pages of my mind for you,
Where could you be? If you only knew.
Darling what you do to me...

So many layers, there's been so many players.
Could you be there, are you a player?
If so, what team? Oh, non it would seem,
Darling you're just not there...

A through Z, names getting hazy,
Can't you just appear to me?
If only, love, you were a genie,
How it would be so easy,
Rub the bottle and there you would be!
Three wishes? I wish I wish oh how I wish you were here!
But sadly darling you are not...

But then I searched inside my heart,
Where I should have looked from the start.

Waterfall

A waterfall of Sorrow, Only cries Sadness,
Leaving an earthquake of pain, with nothing to gain,
Just a deep void inside, a Shadow of Loneliness,
But yet still emotions run deeper, who is to say one is sane?
Why else would the stream be flowing?
Or better yet, the darkness growing?
Could it be the Shunning Sun, that leaves it's keep battered?
The eclipse of it all leaving the poor soul Shattered.
A house of anything is bound to break,
But a house of something has no mistakes.

A Poem For Mama

Everyday I thank God for making you my Mother,
When I'm going through pained times,
I remember the things you did to make me stronger, tougher.
Holding me in your arms, telling me it will be alright,
Catching the streaming tears throughout the night,
Ripping away the ropes, the chains, the twines,
That kept me bound from inside out.
But now it's time, for me, to ease your pain,
To take away your sorrow, your grief, your heartache,
And to replace it with not only hope and trust,
But also a Dependability that will ease the ache.
A love to show that I will do anything,
Risk anything, Just to see a smile upon your face.
Mama, I want to ease the strain,
Take away any pain,
I want to be there for you,
Like you were there for me,
I want to make you strong,
Strong like you assembled me.
Mama, I just want you to be forever happy,
Like you made me.

Forget Me Not

Forget me not when I'm dead and gone,
Forget me not when I leave you in this world alone.
Forget not the times we embraced,
Forget not when we were, one, encased.
Forget me not in your of poor,
Forget me not when you're pained to the core.
Forget not when we walked hand-in-hand.
Forget not when our love was so grand.
Forget me not when I promised you my loyalty,
Forget me not in all Life's beauty,
But Remember Me, Remember Me, Remember Me,
For I shall be with you for Eternity...

Color Me Clear

Color me Clear,
I have nothing to hide,
For those who have lied,
I'd shed no tear.

Color me Clear,
See right through me,
Witness my pain of every year.
Observe within it my honesty.

Color me Clear,
Look onto my fear,
For those dear,
waste not a tear,
Just color me Clear.

Color my eyes,
See what I see,
Color my mouth,
So that I may speak,
Color me all over,
Feel what I feel,
All I ask is that you,
Color me Clear...

What Kind of Night

Mindless night,
For this spectacular sight,
Bad vibes take flight,
So lets not fight.
Baby,
Just you and me,
On this mindless night.

Early night,
The stars so bright,
In your eyes,
My sadness dies,
Lets turn out the light,
And mute the cries,
On this early night,
Lets say GoodNight.

Indecision

I'm at the ledge of indecision,
Tears of regret cloud my vision,
But I must make my final decision.
Do I go up? Do I go down?
This is something I did not envision.
Is peace up? or is it down?
Is that water!? I hope I do not drown.
Great...What a time to be a clown...
Oh... I hope I do not fall into Hell...
Maybe its not my turn!
Maybe they did not check the mail!
Yeah, like they have mail here...

Family

To love someone is to cherish them,
By cherishing them you don't let that love dim,
They're your other half,
You know that person, that no matters what, makes you laugh?
You're there for eachother, in either's time of need,
And you don't do it, because it's a good deed.
No, you do it because, you will do anything to make them happy,
It's not always me, me, me!

But you know what? No matter how many mistakes I make,
No matter what there is at stake,
No matter how much I make their heart ache,
They ALWAYS take me as I am,
About that other stuff? They don't give a damn!

They forgive me, They give me love,
That's more than some has even heard of!
They're so loyal, that's important, Loyalty,
All they ask in return is my Honesty.

I have someone more precious than Life itself,
I will never be by myself,
Do you know what I have? And it belongs to just me,
I have Family..

Missing You

When I think of the Days, the Nights,
All the times, that I looked into your eyes,
I remember that they were always warm and full of love.
How I used to think we had something they never heard of!
The days would pass, all I could think of was your mouth..so sweet..so warm..
You always called it "The Eye of the Storm"
But all that mattered to me was kissing you,
It didn't matter that we got in fights,
Because together we always seen things through,
And to this day, I wonder at out GoodByes.

No Entry

Never let the Heart choose for the Mind,
Never let the Soul choose for the Body,
Never letting you back in.
It's time for me to get back on my grind,
Never again gonna fall behind.
You said Jump, I said How High?
You said Come, I said When?
You said I'm your girl, I said you're my guy.
You think of me, so unkind, so unlined.
Please, no whining, because I must decline.
Please let me, to you, remind.
I may be shy, but baby, let me tell you.
You're never getting it like me, so refined.

Victory

So many times she thought she found love,
That maybe her prayers were answered from above.
So many times that she begged and she cried,
To be free from those hands that pried.
Those fingers that proded and those teeth that bit,
Far too early her candle should not have been lit.
For it was of the purest white, the brightest light,
Now remains the wick, locked in fright.
Born into this world, pure as a dove,
Soft as a lily, this result of love.
She's stuck in a world, all on her own,
Many mistake her for being grown.
Acting as if she's a piece of lawn.
Walking all over her, as if it's some fun.
Then leaving her like trash, in the sun.
Shaken and battered she gets to her feet,
Not ready to admit this disgusting defeat,
Pledging one day, Victory.
But the years go by,
Time, it flies.
Memories still with her,
Not ready to say their GoodBye.
So many times she thought she found love,
That she would find a friend, with a hand to lend,
That maybe her prayers were answered from above,
And maybe to her wounds, they would tend.
So many times that she begged and she cried,
That they would open their heart and take her in,
To be free from those hands that pried,
And free from her world of sin.
Those fingers that proded and those teeth that bit,
Take her hand and by her stand,
Far too early, her candle should not have been lit,
Tell her that they understand,
For it was of the purest white, the brightest light,
Someone tough and strong, full of might,
Now remains the wick, locked in fright,
Who can hold her throughout the night,
This is a story that few will know,
But none who will show, the burden they tow,
Eyes kept low, Foot pace slow,
No one heard the little when she said No.
Today stands the woman, tall and strong,
Looking down on all, who have done her wrong,
For today that little girl is now the Victor.

Lesson Learned

Why would I want your boy,
When I have a man?
He's already been my toy,
Don't you understand?

Listen now and Listen good,
He's a thing of my Past,
Of his type the Last,
No way would I leave my man,
For his cheating ass.

See with me, all your boy did was flex,
Lied his ass off, then went out and got sex,
While I was home waiting, he was looking for his next,
No, check that, he was fucking his ex,
That's why I sent him the "Fuck You" text.

Now let me make sure you got this thing understood,
See now, my man treats me good, like your boy never could,
He spends time with me, instead of trying to fuck bitches in the hood,
And when he puts it down, he does it like a grown man should.

Moment of Life

We threw our emotions into the Flame of Life,
Dreaming one day that we will be Husband and Wife,
You're always telling me the things that I want to hear,
Like how you will defeat my every fear,
And the time you said you'd make me shed no tear.
For today, I can open up my heart to you,
Because now I know, you will tell me no lie,
As I look into this mirror and into my eyes,
There's something I cant help but to realize,
I could be looking upon a face drenched in tears,
Hearing story after story, with lie filled ears,
Instead, I have a smile on my face,
That no nightmare could chase,
I have love in each eye,
That will never die,
And I have you in my heart,
I hope that we never part.